Oh hey there, internet! I’m back. Sorry for the long break. I don’t feel that guilty about it. When I started this blog I used to feel like there was some kind of giant internet mother that would be tapping her foot when I finally showed my face again after some time off. But the lovely truth is that there isn’t. :)
I’ve been gone for the past two months because, as my personal hero Liz Lemon would say, “life is happening!”
First of all, the past two months of work have been insanely busy. I have had something to do for work every weekend for the majority of the past two months. April was especially crazy–concerts, All State, competition trips, and so on. It was insane. This is the first weekend I’ve had free from work, and it has been wonderful. Writing blog posts takes me forever…so weekends are my time to write. Now I finally have that time back!
And then. The big stuff.
I wasn’t very active on here or Twitter because I was so excited about the future, it was all I wanted to talk about…but I couldn’t because of work. The temptation was too great, so I simply avoided saying anything.
So the big news? We’re moving!
Where? I don’t know!
What…? Let me explain!
Dan got into a special program at work that requires us to move twice in the next three years. For this first move, his job decides where we will live (in one of the cities where they have offices, of course). That first “rotation” is 18 months. For the second rotation, Dan can choose where to go. In early June, we are supposed to find out where he will be placed. We will be moving in early August.
We are both extremely excited about this move. For me, it is bittersweet because I will miss my students dearly. I started my teaching career in the school I’m at now, and I even did a semester-long partnership there my junior year of college, AND student taught there my senior year. It’s been five (to sixish) wonderful years of getting to see teenagers grow from insecure youths unsure about how to navigate high school & the world at large, into confident, self-assured legal “adults” (or as I call them, “adults in high school, HS freshmen in college, babies at life”) who can’t wait to get out into the world & see what it’s all about. Which is the main reason I wanted to teach high school in the first place–to see students grow into the people they will be out in the world, and maybe be a role model that shows them you can be true to yourself and still be a successful adult.
Still, I feel happiest when I am changing things in my life. My family pretty much moved at least once every three years until I was 18, so I guess it’s been built into my wiring. I love seeing new places, meeting new people, and soaking up new environments. After spending a while in one place, I get…restless. I feel an intense urge to mix things up or try something new.
In all honesty, we had been planning on moving in summer 2014 anyway because I plan to start a PhD program by then. So, we’re just bumping up the inevitable, really. I still plan on applying for programs this fall/winter so that (fingers crossed) I can start a program in fall 2014. It will work out well because not long after that, Dan will start his second rotation and can move to an office near wherever I’m in school (hopefully Colorado…).
The scary thing? The job part. While I could look for a teaching job, I don’t know that I could, in good conscience, work in a school knowing that I am only there for one year…and subbing is NOT up my alley. If I’m in a classroom, I want it to be mine & I want to be in charge of what happens in it. Yes, I’m a control freak when it comes to teaching. I’m an alpha dog. Can’t help it. :)
In terms of the job aspect, it’s been a roller coaster of emotions: excitement about moving, the realization that I am quitting my job for this with no backup plan, the fear that I won’t find another job, and then, eventually, the quiet comfort of trusting the universe to guide me to whatever I am to do in this next 18(ish) months.
I’ve been applying to all kinds of jobs in the hopes of finding something that I can do this summer, here in CT. I’ve been trying to find jobs that can transfer (transcribing, social media work, and yes, even Starbucks).
So, I am really going all-in on this new journey. It’s a GIANT leap of faith, but I’m thrilled at the prospect of new adventures & new faces in the future.
And now, I am off to pack. :)